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August 26 Back to the Drawing Board...I have been waiting for days to hear whether or not I would be offered a job that I interviewed for and I got my answer a few minutes ago. It was a "no". Now, I've been praying since the beginning that God would not allow me to go where He did not want me to go, and for whatever reason, I'm not supposed to go there...but it doesn't make it any less disappointing, especially when it seemed like I job that I am so suited for.
So I am back to the drawing board. I could focus hard at acquiring new music students (which would be great). With the economy the way it is, however, it's so much harder for families to afford some of the "extras" like music lessons. I could work at the business with my husband (and not recieve a paycheck because we can't afford another person on the payroll right now) or I keep searching for another job opening somewhere...
This waiting on the Lord has always been a struggle for me. I like to know what the plan is and get to it. Looks like He wants me work on this lesson for a while longer.  August 21 Looks like I'll have to wait a little longerI put in a call to the place that I was applying for work this afternoon and it looks like I will have to wait until Tuesday to hear whether or not they will offer me the job. Patience has never been a strength of mine. My mind starts racing with all of the possibilities... I have trouble getting to sleep because I'm thinking ahead through a whole score of scenarios. I've been researching new things that I could bring to the existing program. I've been thinking about tricks that I can use to learn everyone's names more quickly. I've been researching songs from the 40's and 50's so that I can bring music to the residents and thinking of all kinds of craft ideas. I really do think that I could be an asset there. That being said, it looks like the Lord is keeping me in a place of being dependent on Him. Whether I get the job or not.
It may very well be that God wants me to find that kind of excitement and passion for the things that He's already given me to do. Maybe I can do both if I stay in a place of running to Him as my source for everything. I'll never make it all by myself, but nothing is impossible with God.
Thank you for remembering me in your prayers and I will update you as soon as I know anything. (They are having a big event at the assisted living community this weekend- kind of a farmer's market or fair with a BBQ and live music. They are hoping to get a turnout from the local community and I think that I may just pop in for awhile so that they don't forget about me!) Still waitingI had my job interview and left feeling reasonably hopeful that I might be the applicant selected. However, I knew that I would not hear anything for a couple of days. During this time of waiting, I'm driving myself nuts. During the day, I do a pretty good job of leaving things in God's hands, but when I'm supposed to be sleeping...well, that's when my imagination must reach out and take things right back.
My mind keeps racing with questions. How will the kids adapt to me going from being a homeschool mom to working full-time? How will I adapt to it? Will my husband help out more or will I find myself on my own with household things? How are we going to arrange the after-school hours? I know. Every working mother goes through the same thing and they figure it out. But this is all new to me.
And the silly thing is, that I shouldn't be worried about it. I have prayed since the beginning that I would not get the job if it means that I would be putting myself outside of God's will for me and my family. I need to just let it go and wait on the Lord. I'll know soon enough. August 16 Job interview tipsOkay, I've been really seeking the Lord's direction during this season of my life as to whether I stay at home, work at the family business, teach music, or go get a job that's completely different and OUT OF MY HOUSE! I've been praying that the Lord would slam shut the doors He does not want me to walk through so that I don't end up somewhere that I'm not supposed to be. And if I'm supposed to be somewhere, that the door would swing wide.
I came home from the last event of my high school reunion this afternoon (which was great, by the way! I don't know what I was so nervous about) and I have been called in for an interview. I'm so excited! I would be driving a little farther than I would think is ideal, but it is certainly reasonable and I think it is a job that would really use the things that I am gifted at. The opening that I'm interviewing for is to be the activities director at an assisted living community.
My question that I want to toss out there to all of you is, do you have any tips for job interview success?
It has been almost twelve years since I was interviewed and hired. I'm feeling pretty rusty and I think that I would really like to get this one. August 12 Ever had computer troubles?My friend, Linda, told me about a great video that she had seen on YouTube. For those of us who have ever had issues dealing with modern techology, you will be able to relate to this one!
August 11 What is it about high school reunions?For months, I've known that my 20 year high school reunion is happening this year and I've looked forward to it. There are actually some great people that I would love to catch up with again. Friends that I've lost contact with since the "married with children" life took over at warp speed. I've looked forward to a fun night out with my husband and the family day where we can all show off our kids. I'm content with my life. I feel blessed and proud of the life that we have established. I know that I'm successful because I'm still seeking after God and His plan for me. Whether I'm running or falling flat on my face, it's okay because I have a great foundation.
So how come these last few days I have find myself nervous to go to the reunion? I catch my reflection in the mirror and see more flaws than I did last week? Why am I wishing that I hadn't had my hair cut so short last time? Why am I worried about what I'm going to wear? I'll be honest. I haven't worried about what outfit to wear for probably fifteen years. I like how I dress.
What is it about reunions that make me second guess myself? Why do I feel like I have to measure up the way I did when I was starting highschool? By the time I was a senior, I was comfortable with who I was. I didn't care what anyone thought of me. I don't think I've ever looked back to the scrawny, latebloomer that I was when I was a freshman. With each year, I have grown more confident in myself because I have learned to trust God with a little bit more of my life. At this rate, by the time I'm ninety, there'll be no stopping me! But really..I'm disappointed that I've allowed myself to worry about things that do not matter.
I'm going to look like I always look. I'm going to wear my hair the way I always wear my hair. I'm going to dress the way I always dress. I'm going to enjoy catching up with the people I went to high school with. If anybody thinks my hair's too short or "she's put on weight", I guess I'll give them as much thought as I've given them these last twenty years- none! By the time my next reunion rolls around, I'll be wishing I look this good.
(I am going to get a new outfit, though! It's been long enough since my last date with my husband, that my reunion is "new outfit" worthy  . I wonder if I should go to the Dress Baaaaaaarn...) |
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